There’s only so much a person can do. Given the fact that I’m so ‘people orientated’, I did make an effort, a tremendous one in that to get to know people and to mingle around. You know the most difficult thing is to mingle with people who do not want to open their ‘gang’ to you. I used to think it was me. That’s because these people were the friendly and loudmouth kind. Things were pretty bad especially when I joined my first MNC. Being a freshie did not help a bit. More so when I was a freshie not based in the HQ. It did not help that I’m an introvert.
I used to cringe each time I had to go there to the point of having sleepness nights thinking about how am I going to spend the time there. They would group together and yap and laugh only to stop when you are there. Well, that’s a friendly thing to do, isn’t it. Worse still, I have also experinced them switching to another language in a deliberate attempt to have a ‘them only’ conversation. How nice!
Sick and tired of having plastered the fake smile on my face all the time with these people and seemingly I’m part of the group act (AKA I’m friends with all) , I decided to stop the nonsense for once & for all. I started to just be myself. When they bore me, I just be me. No more of the oh-that’s-interesting with-a-fake-smile-on-my-face me. I sit by myself rather then to listening to ‘exciting’ stories like how Ms XYZ found a matching chappal for her glittery earrings . When I’m sleepy, I go to bed. When I want to eat, I eat. I don’t care if the fried chicken in oily or not. If it’s palatable, I eat it. I simply didn’t care for the group’s affirmations. Not anymore.
That’s how I was liberated.
Did I mention I had a small group of my own by the time I left that MNC?
Sometimes, seemingly friendly and joyful people are not that friendly and joyful. People are not as they seem to be from afar. If you are always surrounded by people like this, it could only mean one thing: you are yet to find your group.