The last few nights saw me raising my voice at N. It all started like this-I fell asleep together with him on Sunday night. That’s how he ended up sleeping with us. And it became a custom of sorts for the following two nights just after his 3am milk feeds.
Previously, I carry him back to his cot after he dozes off having his 3am milk. So what happens next is this, the boy:
- starts to go all around the bed. The slightest bodily contact with his father or me will irritate him where he gives out the fussy cry
- the same when he comes in contact with the comforter, pillows
- gets all restless and gives the same fussy cry even though there’s no bodily contact
First cry, I remove all objects away from N. Inclusive of pushing Appa to the edge of the bed. The second and consequetive cries, the mom in me patiently consols N. When it goes on again a couple of minutes later, voila! Amma becomes Ammazilla! For next few seconds. Then guilt kicks in. Not before comtemplating if I should put him back in his cot. In my mind, that is the a VERY badass thing to do to my son. Yes, I’m rolling my own eyes too! Cos that’s exactly what I would do if someone else told me!!.
Anyway, I then kissed N and slept it off.
Could it be that I was dead tired the last few days? Or that the little one is making its presence felt? A force to be reckoned with? Or he simply wants his own space? That soon?
N is 1 year 3 months 29 days old.